You spin me right round, right round – and also upside down.Posted: September 30, 2013
My thoughts fade away when I focus my body entirely on physical movement. As someone whose mind is usually full of anxious chatter, I find bouts of silence to be blissful. I’ve experienced this silence in a variety of ways – I run, lift weights, hike, practice yoga, and bike. I’ve never experienced silence while sitting in meditation. Maybe I haven’t gotten the hang of it just yet, and maybe sitting isn’t my style. As a yogi, I reason that meditation should mold itself with ease into my regular yoga practice, but I haven’t found this to be the case. At first, it was really difficult to sit still. Yoga is meant to teach the body to do just that. By practicing postures that open up the hamstrings and hips, by strengthening the core – sitting still is meant to become easier for the body. It has.
My mind, on the other hand, is much more difficult to train. From what I understand, you’re supposed to see your thoughts as clouds, allowing them to float by without paying them much mind. I’ve always been someone who spends a great amount of time analyzing cloud shapes, and I’m unable (yet) to ignore them. In part, I think that I need to grow my meditation practice. I’m working on this, slowly. Right now, I can sit for three to five minutes before I get up. It’s a long process toward learning.
In the meantime, I’m trying to learn more about myself by focusing on my thoughts while engaging in movements. For this reason and several others, I’ve made it a personal goal to bike to work at least three days a week. Biking erases my daily worries – by the time that I get home after work, I feel like I’ve hit a reset button on my day. Considering how stressful work has been lately, I’ll take any method of wiping the slate clean.